I grew up in rural NWPA, surrounded in forest. I took an early interest in cryprozoology and sharks and have read many books on various crypto subjects such as Bigfoot and Megalodon over the years. I am not a professional writer or a journalist, but I do the best I can. I have a quirky, obscurely dry and sometimes sarcastic sense of humor than can get me in trouble. Some love me and some hate me, but I am who I am.

Well, I’m back from an extended vacation. I know, you all cried yourselves to sleep wondering when I’d return. Fear not, because today is the day….or tomorrow…or whenever I finish this article.

Moving on, it was in the thrird trimester of my vacation that my best girl Lindsay sent me an interesting text. She said: “Have you heard about “Gateway Of The Mind”?

As I scanned my memory, I realized that no, I had not. However, the phrase got my attention, so I began an interweb search and it wasn’t long before I found the story at an interesting site called Creepypasta.com.

So, put on your specs, sit back and enjoy Gateway Of The Mind:

In 1983, a team of deeply pious scientists conducted a radical experiment in an undisclosed facility. The scientists had theorized that a human without access to any senses or ways to perceive stimuli would be able to perceive the presence of God. They believed that the five senses clouded our awareness of eternity, and without them, a human could actually establish contact with God by thought. An elderly man who claimed to have “nothing to left to live for” was the only test subject to volunteer. To purge him of all his senses, the scientists performed a complex operation in which every sensory nerve connection to the brain was surgically severed. Although the test subject retained full muscular function, he could not see, hear, taste, smell, or feel. With no possible way to communicate with or even sense the outside world, he was alone with his thoughts.

Scientists monitored him as he spoke aloud about his state of mind in jumbled, slurred sentences that he couldn’t even hear. After four days, the man claimed to be hearing hushed, unintelligible voices in his head. Assuming it was an onset of psychosis, the scientists paid little attention to the man’s concerns.

Two days later, the man cried that he could hear his dead wife speaking with him, and even more, he could communicate back. The scientists were intrigued, but were not convinced until the subject started naming dead relatives of the scientists. He repeated personal information to the scientists that only their dead spouses and parents would have known. At this point, a sizable portion of scientists left the study.

After a week of conversing with the deceased through his thoughts, the subject became distressed, saying the voices were overwhelming. In every waking moment, his consciousness was bombarded by hundreds of voices that refused to leave him alone. He frequently threw himself against the wall, trying to elicit a pain response. He begged the scientists for sedatives, so he could escape the voices by sleeping. This tactic worked for three days, until he started having severe night terrors. The subject repeatedly said that he could see and hear the deceased in his dreams.

Only a day later, the subject began to scream and claw at his nonfunctional eyes, hoping to sense something in the physical world. The hysterical subject now said the voices of the dead were deafening and hostile, speaking of hell and the end of the world. At one point, he yelled “No heaven, no forgiveness” for five hours straight. He continually begged to be killed, but the scientists were convinced that he was close to establishing contact with God.

After another day, the subject could no longer form coherent sentences. Seemingly mad, he started to bite off chunks of flesh from his arm. The scientists rushed into the test chamber and restrained him to a table so he could not kill himself. After a few hours of being tied down, the subject halted his struggling and screaming. He stared blankly at the ceiling as teardrops silently streaked across his face. For two weeks, the subject had to be manually hydrated due to the constant crying. Eventually, he turned his head and, despite his blindness, made focused eye contact with a scientist for the first time in the study. He whispered “I have spoken with God, and he has abandoned us” and his vital signs stopped. There was no apparent cause of death.

Pretty creepy, huh? What’s more creepy is that this story started my mind to flashing from subject to subject. It was then that I came to finally realize what I had been mulling over for the past five years.

Most of you know that I make no secret about being a Christian. In that respect I often look at the world around me and try to analyze life in regards to God’s involvement with us, more specifically, America.

It was last year when I really started to accept the realization that we in America had changed. Without getting into all the details of what has shaped my views, I will say, the weekly “rampage shootings” were the proverbial camel back straw. The conclusion I had feared for quite some time has come to fruition and it was the above story that triggered my final thoughts on the matter.

The story concludes as the man exclaims: “I have spoken with God, and he has abandoned us”.

However, I believe it’s quite the opposite. In my estimation, we (in America) have abandoned God.

A big shout out to Creepypasta.com for the great story.

Associated Content:

GT: Psi and Psychosis: Be Afraid. Be Very Afraid
GT: Apocalyptic Vision
GT: Is this the Fourth Horseman of the Apocalypse?

  • More than creepy, it seems to be contradictory to the Hypocratic Oath. Highly unethical at the very least.

  • lindsay

    yayyy!!! creepy ass story! especially that, “i have spoken with God, and he has abandoned us” part

  • BW

    Um, not wanting to be wet towel here . . . however . . . there is a LOT of dis-function in American society today.  The various reactions like the War on Drugs, anti-alcohol campaigns, gun control — all fail to realize there is a single source for the various problems: our society is not functional.  And until we get enough cojones as a nation to admit that and begin to repair the gaping tears in society’s fabric, people will continue to abuse chemical substances and find spurious justifications to commit mass murder and other extreme anti-social activities.

    A long time ago, the Cathars believed in a duality:  that there was a spiritual kingdom (of God) and a kingdom of the material world (ruled by a darker lord).  Your belief that we have abandoned God could also be interpreted as too much focus on the material world — as in, “free stuff !” and “Greed is good !” .  But without any focus on the non-material aspects of existence, the material seems to be all that our society has left to offer, and it is much less than what most people need for a balanced existence.  My two cents, anyhow.



  • AaronD2012

    Interesting perspective. Isn’t this essentially what the shaloin monks accomplish when they meditate–a disconnect of the worldly senses? Altered consciousness?

  • AaronD2012

    ” . . . there is a LOT of dis-function in American society today. The various reactions like the War on Drugs, anti-alcohol campaigns, gun control — all fail to realize there is a single source for the various problems: our society is not functional.  ”
    Yup, if they’d just legalize pot, allow themselves to enjoy an adult beverage now and then, and leave our guns alone, a lot of issues would be resolved…..IMO

  • Psychotic episode similar to sleep deprivation. People who did long term sensory deprivation chamber experiments had similar reactions, though not as extreme.

  • lindsay

    hey, you guys. you’re welcome for finding this! 😀

  • LOOMfreek

    I’m hoping and assuming this is just a story. Religious beliefs aside, this is more than creepy, but disturbing.  “Scientist” that have a theory that our senses block us from tuning into God. A scientific theory needs to be at minimum backed up by some observable phenomenon to at least suggest and support the theory. But since we can not see or measure god, it would be impossible to create a theory.

    So what we are really talking about are some “Doctors” and/or “Scientists” conducting an experiment, trying to prove a theory based on faith, involving surgery on a live human being.


  •  You should start writing some up :  )

  • lindsay

     i would love to

  • Valkyrie13

    I hate to be a Debbie Downer with this being Scott’s first post back and the illustrious Lindsay sent it to him, but this was already posted in a nobblesliscious thread in the forums by a one Jenfaer, see exhibit A:  http://www.ghosttheory.com/forums/gt-lounge/creepypasta

    Since I don’t really believe in a God god I don’t find this creepy, and if there is a god he’s kind of a dick anyway, so good riddance.  And I guess I should add the requisite “IMO” though obviously it’s all my own opinion.   

  • Jessica Snethen

    Wow I am following you now as I have been reading your posts, I am super impressed with you and your honesty and the fact you say it like it is, Just like me. :))~

  • AaronD2012

    Why thankyou Jessica Snethen 🙂