I grew up in rural NWPA, surrounded in forest. I took an early interest in cryprozoology and sharks and have read many books on various crypto subjects such as Bigfoot and Megalodon over the years. I am not a professional writer or a journalist, but I do the best I can. I have a quirky, obscurely dry and sometimes sarcastic sense of humor than can get me in trouble. Some love me and some hate me, but I am who I am.


I always thought I might commit suicide someday. When I considered the options of living to be old and all the negatives associated with that alternative, I knew there was no way on earth I was going to allow myself to deal with such an intolerable situation. In order to guarantee that I avoided it, I also knew that I had to commit the act before I was incapacitated and unable to carry it out.

Note: This may be too much for some and I certainly don’t recommend it for children or those who are unstable. It also may scare the crap out of certain people. In many cases, I would say that if you fear reading it, then don’t.

A sports writer named Martin Manley committed suicide on August 15, 2013 at the age of 60. He wasn’t sick or depressed, he wasn’t financially strapped or mentally deficient. You’ll have to read to find out why.

You may have a definite opinion of Mr. Manley in your mind right now, but as you read, I guarantee your mind will be changed many times before you finish.

Why am I posting this? Because it’s macabre, scary, thought provoking and ponders life and death while touching on all those areas we are all so terrified of.

Home Page
January 1, 2012
June 11, 2012
Suicide Preface
Why Suicide?
Why Not?
Why Age 60?
Self Serving?
Suicide – How To
Gun Control
Other Suicides
Other Quotes

If you have clicked over to Mr. Manley’s site, you already know there are several other categories to read. Those who can handle it should read the entirety of the site.

Mr. Manley made a choice and it’s possible that he’s started something that will prompt actions from others in his age group. When you are young, life seems to be never ending. You are full of health and vitality, just starting out on a big journey. However, deep down in places we don’t want to know is the reality of where life ends up for most of us. Mr. Manley didn’t want to end up there.

I can’t say I admire him, but I also can’t say that I blame him. It’s definitely a profound moment of reality to read such a thing as Mr. Manley wanted to examine life in all it’s brutal truth.

It certainly will cause me to think……

I’d give Mr. Manley my usual credit link, but I don’t think he cares at this point.

  • The main reason this is a problem for people is the ingrained religious dogma against it. The fact of the matter is this may become a new normal at some point in our future. I have long said that if we want to make substantive changes in climate and our environment the main issue is that our population has grown beyond what the environment can accommodate. Hate that idea or not, hate me for saying it or not, but there are those in much higher and more influential positions who agree. What will the answer to that be?

    “Soylent Green” may have been more prophetic than anyone cares to believe

  • IThinkso
  • Thank you! That is worthy of an article.

  • Dioji Woolf

    At least we all get to read this memorial. He seems to have cared deeply about people reading not only the story of his death but also his life: posting it publicly to be viewed by anyone who searched or stumbled by. I can see a lot of potential in this new form of autobiography.

  • IThinkso

    You’re always welcome Br. Henry. The people won’t fall into the devils trap, if they are content and thankful for whatever little they have for the excitement of the brain.

  • BW

    Wonder how long “authority” will allow his site to stay online.